Set Adrift on Memory Bliss
I met up with a former boyfriend from high school last year. Ivan and I went to his bar in Hong Kong. It was really surreal to see Joseph after so long. We talked about the old days, Las Vegas, our travels and life. He said to both of us “I thought Jen was cute back then, but Wow, look at her now.” I blushed and laughed awkwardly. I should have said “You look great too.” But, I was embarrassed and didn’t say anything. 😂
Later, it made me think of the lyrics from Set Adrift of Memory Bliss by PM Dawn:
“She said, "Bet you're probably gonna say I look lovely
But you probably don't think nothin' of me"
She was right, though, I can't lie
She's just one of those corners in my mind
So I just put her right back with the rest
That's the way it goes, I guess”
Sure, we both thought each other looked great, but it didn’t really mean anything. It was just a short relationship - Joseph even said to Ivan that we dated for like 5 minutes. I do remember that Joe gave me butterflies when we kissed for the first time. 😂 I was so devastated when he broke up with me. It was a HUGE deal to me, but isn’t everything a big deal to a 16 year old girl? I even called my older sister when she was in Cali for college to tell her about the breakup. I was so dramatic, silly and soooooo obsessed with boys! I always seemed to have a crush on a cute guy. But, of course half the time you never even talked to them since you were so intimidated (like a hot senior and you were only a freshman!) or just too shy to try.
Ivan playfulled suggest that if things had worked out between me and aJoseph, I might have ended up in Hong Kong. It’s amusing how Ivan teased the kids by saying I would meet another ex-boyfriend in Tokyo. Now, the boys believe I have a collection of ex-boyfriends all around the world! 😄
It was great to reminisce about the past and think about a short period of time in my past. I think our minds are like a library and we can access different stories or moments in our past. Like a good book, it’s lovely to re-read it, but somehow it’s just not the same like when we first experienced it. It made me think about how immature I was back then. I realize that I have come so far from high school. Things aren’t so dramatic when things go wrong like in the past. I’m more confident. I’ve travelled the world, married a gorgeous Englishman and gave birth to two beautiful sons. Catching up with former boyfriends (or girlfriends) is always good, but you have to put them back with the rest. That’s the way it goes, I guess.